Monday, March 30, 2009


So I've been slacking on the blog... which unfortunately also means I've been slacking on the working out...

Since my knees have been hurting, I wanted to give it a week off to rest... so I did (and they still hurt). Hmm... I was going to go walk at the lake the other day, but it got cold and who wants to be at the lake when its cold!? (of course, I dont really want to be out there when its boiling hot either...)

I am totally encouraged by one of our MOXIE girls though! Chrissy ran the Bearathon 1/2 marathon in Waco this past weekend!! The other girls who went to support her said she did AMAZING! She's totally inspiring!!! She finished under 2 hrs... (actually I dont even know what that means, but from the way ppl said it- It seems like its really good!)

Soooo I'm registered for the 5k on Sat in Ft Worth... i'm gonna be walking most of it- but I'm going to do it... I really need to go walk/jog today... but i had fever last night and this morning... so maybe I should go easy... this is tough! I'm kinda not having much confidence that I'm gonna be able to RUN the whole 5k on June 7... I think I need to really start working on my food intake a lot more and try to lose some LBs to make it easier on my joints to carry me! Hmmm...

OK well ... i just wanted to be honest about where I am and why im' not posting!!!!!!!!! Hopefully the next post will have some activity to report...

Pray that this stomach bug/fever goes away asap! I kinda feel miserable... and even had to miss Softball last night! Darn!

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Slow Week

So its Wednesday and I haven't posted in 2 days...
Thats because I haven't really done much in 2 days... oops! I did ride a stationary bike yesterday for about 10 min in our 'workout room" at the church. We're working on cleaning it out and making it better all around! So hopefuly I can spend more time in there - esp on yucky/off/or busy days!

My knee is really hurting me- even to like fake jog down the hall when I pick up nathan and "race" to get back to my office... it hurts!

SO- do I just get over the pain (something I KNOW I can do... esp after labor!) and run anywya... or do I baby it, take it easy?? Hmmm I just don't know! I dont like being off my 'schedule" bc I have GOALS PPL!! And I"m having a hard enough time keeping those goals as it is!!! Much less adding injury! Ugh!!!

I did register for the April 4th Victory over Violence 5k.. I'm going to walk a lot and run some hopefully with one of my running girls, Alison! It should be tons of fun! I will get a chip- so this race will be a good baseline for the one I plan to ACTUALLY run on June 7th!

Thats about it in the land of becoming! :) I'm on pause till I figure out what to do and how hard to train/push/etc.


Monday, March 23, 2009

Want it, Win it, I WON!! :)

So i just checked out my email and it appears that I am a winner!!

How exiting!!

I recently stumbled upon a blog for mom's who are trying to workout!

She has great tips on how to work out in short time spans and it has already been a big blessing, encouragement, and help to me to read her blog!

So here's the link to the contest that I entered...

and here's the email I got Sat night... Tiffany, congrats--you are the winner! please email me with your mailing address, shirt size and color preference. Thanks! :)

YAY! I win! :)
I like to win!! And I'm excited about this new workout shirt!!

Weekend Update

This weekend has been CRAZY and Busy and WONDERFUL all at the same time!! :)

Saturday morning, my wonderful TEAM MOXIE friends all met up at Moxie Girl Chrissy's house on Swiss for a group Walk/Run! It was tons of fuN! She had the route all mapped out for us... I'm not sure how long i actually RAN... but i did run some... (prob less than everyone else though! I'm sooo the slowest and one that gets tired easiest!! how I long to run with ease like the majority of my 'team'! Man!) Chrissy tells us we did 1.5 mi.. and it took about 35 min.

After the run, I ran off to Softball practice. Yes folks- I'm playing Softball! I like going to the games and have been at almost every one for the last couple of yrs... it's always been such a fun time of fellowship and community- but usually I'm just sitting in the stands. This time, I'll be in the Dugout (most of the game I'm sure!) and I'll be part of a team! I'm excited!

So practice was fine- i was only there about 30 min or so bc I had a baby shower to goto... but later that night, my arm and side were SO SORE!!! I guess I"m not used to those muscles workin! Even the muscle in my left hand (Glove hand) between my thumb and first finger was sore from moving the glove closed when I was catching the ball! So weird! But I feel like its a good thing!! No Pain - No Gain!! :)

After that- I got to goto a Jump party for some fantastic 4 yr olds w my little man! I didn't jump nearly as much as I did at Pump it up! BUT i managed a few minutes here and there w my little guy! It was SO much fun playing w him! And I LOVED having more energy to chase him around!

So one negative thing about Sat... and all the activity... my KNEES ARE KILLING ME! They hurt soooo bad! I can barely jog w out feeling pain - seems like its kinda in the joints when I put my foot down and its the impact or something that is hurting it. I really dont' want to be stopped before I START on this whole running thing... its annoying to not only have to overcome myself and motivation, and just trying to run endurance wise, but also having to overcome the physical thing too! UGH!

Oh well! hopefully it will all be ok. i'm resting today because of it. And to be honest, I'm happy about that. I just REALLY want to hit my goal of the 5k in june- running the WHOLE thing.

Sunday was the softball game and I didn't play much. I did get to throw a lot during the day (my arm needs work!) and practice w some of my friends. It was fun to have something to do that I enjoyed!! (even if my arm and side and back ARE sore!) I went up to bat twice .. and I'll be working on my swing this week hopefully! (never been to a "batting Cages" before so that could be fuN!).

I think thats my recap of activity for the weekend. As hard as running STILL is for me (even at just 3 minutes), I'm so happy to be transforming my life into one w LOTS of activity! :) I've never been a super physically active person (just really SOCIALLY active) and so its really fun to be changing my life- one day at a time!

The TIRED and SORE but believing its worth it RIT

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Week 2 is hard already!!

I decided I wanted to move right away into Wk 2. (That is 5 min walk, 3 min runs Four times)...

I knew it was going to be tough, so I texted a few of my "running girls" to see if anyone could meet me. Luckily Margaret was free! Yay! I decided we should meet in the middle and get a change of scenery and so we went to White Rock (it was in the middle between work and where Marg was and I've been wanting to go out there but not really by myself!)

I LOVE lakes and so I thought it would motivate me if I had something pretty to look at...

WEll... it started ok... we got on the trail and we were off... 10 min walking to warm up and then the time was coming for the first 3 min set. It started off just fine... no biggie... I felt like it was FOREVER... looked at my watch at 2min or so... and was like- man! Ok... Keep going! (Marg was a big help too!) So we pushed it ... i looked at the watch again... 20 seconds left... so we decided I had to run to a certain tree before I could look again... I did and guess what? I ran 10 seconds over!!! So that was a good one!

The second time around, I ran and started getting that side pain again about 40 seconds from the end of the 3 min. IT HURT!!! A LOT! So I made it the whole 3 minutes... BARELY.... and then was in pain as we walked... SOOO I was the time keeper and Marg and I were just chatting away and I kinda never told her when the time was up for us to run again! OOPS! :) I just didnt' want to! She didn't seem to notice.

Everytime a bicycler rode past us I was LONGING to be on something that would carry me far and fast... instead of having to use my own body to do so! Marg swears it isn't any easier.... but i'm pretty sure it is! I used to have a bike and I LOVED to ride... and go fast... and just travel wherever... now walking and running... its so hard to LOVE. Actually I'm doing good to just not LOATHE it!!! :)

It was getting late (Marg had to be somewherE) so I told her she could run ahead... in which case she asked when we do the next interval run and I said...uh... 10 min ago!!! Twice by now!!:) So after that, she didn't want to run ahead... she wanted to make me run... sooo... we did. However at about 2:20 my side was hurting again, we were going uphill, the sun was BEATING down, and it was MISERABLE... so I just stopped running to walk. Of course as soon as marg noticed she was on me to "Pick up your feet! Move!! Jog, or at least BOUNCE!!!" So I did... for like another 10 -15 seconds... and then we're on this steep incline... and I'm DYING, my KNEES were hurting and I stopped again... She got on me again (which I'm thankful for) and so i started sorta running again... till the end.... but I prob only got in about 2:45 of actual running... w all the stops and starts.

I did NOT feel good in the end. I wasn't exhillerated, or even proud of myself really. Ya I upped it to 3 min... but I didnt' complete 4 cycles... just 3... and a weak 3 at that. I kinda felt like I failed Wk 2 #1! Like I should redo it bc it didn't count... Honestly, I was disappointed. I was disappointed that it was so hard! I was disappointed that I didn't push through, disappointed that my knee hurt, disappointed that I wanted to quit bc it was hard and HOT HOT HOT! I really started to wonder if I REALLY am cut out for this running thing.. or if this was just some crazy LOFTY goal.

Of course I feel like some of that emotion could be bc yesterday was the first FULL day of that wonderful time of the month. And I consoled myself later in the evening by remembering that most of the time on the FIRST day, I'm bloated and barely do ANYTHING... and at least I was out exercising for 45 min and ran some of that. But... thats a weak consolation right now. I just dont know if i CAN do this! I mean, I want to... I'm gonna work hard on it... I'm going to push myself... but I'm lacking the faith or even that hope that I'll be able to run the whole 5K in June... and then I'll feel like I failed.

Its dumb... I know! It really is. I'm doing SOMETHING... and surely the endurance and strength will be built up... surely! But the idea of running 5 min at a time or even 8 min in the next couple of weeks... really scares me... bc I dont know if I have it in me. I'm not totally discouraged and I'm not giving up... but I'm bummed! This is REALLY hard.

I feel like changing the verse Phil 4:13- I think i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, or I really hope I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.


Till next time,

Workout stats: Time: 45 min, Distance: 2 mi (ish), Run Time: 8 min, 55 seconds. (should have been 12 min!)

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Wk 1 is DONE!

So I went and ran right after work today. I started a bit late and daycare closes at 6, so I cut out 5 min of the first 10 min walking part. (might have been a bad idea but you gotta do what you gotta do). I was really hoping this would be a BREEZE! I mean, its been 3 times so far... and I am starting on "wk 2" intervals next workout (aka 3 min of solid run time as opposed to 2 min) so I thought it'd be fun!


It was just as hard as the 2nd time!! I was checkin time when I had about 40 seconds left every time I ran. I was hot and sweating. There were too many ppl on the track, and it was just rough!!

BUT- I DID IT! I finished 4 workouts running in 2 minute intervals consistently without quitting! yay!

I actually think my energy has something to do with what I eat (shocker- I know)... but on the 2nd and 4th time doing this workout- I had eaten within the 2 hrs before and i just felt heavier. The 3rd time- I went at lunch and had only had a slimfast shake that morning and some juice. I felt so much more energized then! Of course it could have to do with the time of day too- 5pm, end of the work day, etc. But man! I want to do something to change that on my next workout!!

Oh well- its done... (only a million more workouts to go before I'm ready for the 5k... or even for the 1k in just 2.5 wks- YIKES!!!!!)

PS- on a side note, THANK YOU everyone for your encouragement, your comments, your emails, etc! They mean the WORLD to me! I can't believe that my decision to be a runner and to start a blog about it have resulted in so much encouragement. And its cool that some of the encouragements come just when I start to wonder if I can REALLY do this... or if I'm NUTS! God is SOOO good to me!

I feel REALLY silly that people have said I've encouraged them and inspired them when I'm just doing something I should have done a long time ago (take care of myself) and writing about it. Anyway, its such a blessing to me! God works in amazing ways!

Now quit reading and go be ACTIVE!!! :) If i can do it- YOU can!!!

- A VERY sweaty RIT!

Weak in the Knees

On Monday, I did my 3rd interval workout at lunch. Then when I got home, I did a Total Gym Workout in the evening. I'm not too terribly sore all over, but yesterday when I got up, my knees were a little weak! They didn't HURT so to speak... but just kinda feel funny.

I decided to take yesterday off, hoping that a little rest would do them good! I'm hoping my knee won't be a problem!

I had a snow skiing accident on our Church Sr Ski Trip in '98 up in New Mexico. I was coming down the mountain zig zagging like a good little beginner when all the sudden this snowboarder comes out of nowhere and somehow clips the back of my right ski. He hits it from the inside kinda so the back of the ski went to my right, twisted me around and I landed facing up the mountain. I still remember the guy just looked at me, got up and took off without so much as a Sorry or Are You Ok?! Hmmm I've kinda had a grudge against snowboarders ever since!!

So that was in Jan of 98 and then July of 98 I had to have Orthoscopic Knee surgery. I honestly don't even remember what they did (I think I blocked it out!) but I know I have 3 tiny little scars around that knee. I'm pretty sure I didn't rehab it all that great bc I wasn't worried about it back then... I was just about to head off to college for the first time and doing physical therapy was the last thing on my mind!

I've never been all that athletic, so I always thought it was odd that my knee hurt from time to time. Its not like I've been hard on it!

So I definitely don't want to reinjure the knee and am a bit concerned! Its only been 2 wks of this little journey I'm on and I dont want to get stopped before I even get started!!

I'm going to try to do my LAST set of the 1st interval running (2 min at a time) today at lunch! I'll let you know how the knee feels after that! It seems so silly that I would have an injury issue already!! I just started 2 wks ago! (wow was it just 2 wks?! So much has changed since then!)

Maybe I should wear a knee brace just as a precaution?? That seems annoying! I guess we'll see how it feels after today! hopefully I just overworked it on Monday and it will be fine as it gets stronger!
If you have tips on how to keep my knee safe- feel free to post!

Tiff, the R.I.T!

Monday, March 16, 2009

3rd Interval Workout & Butterflies!

I've been trying to figure out when I was going to get my workouts in this week. I want to be able to train 4 days a week - but its really hard to get that many in- esp in they are supposed to be evenly spaced!!! YOWZERS!

So today- I decided it's been several days (thurs night) since I got to try to Run... and since I just got new shoes yesterday- (from Luke's Locker on Oaklawn! Great place! I ended up with some fun Asics and learned I need a "Neutral shoe"! I also purchased running socks- who knew you had to have special socks?!) I wanted to test them out!!

The day was AMAZING and I didnt' want to waste it! I changed in my office; put on my new Danskin pants and T-shirt (from Walmart), laced up my new shoes, got out my ipod and my new arm band thingie for it & headed out the door to Eastfield College where they have a great 1 mile track! I was ready to go!

So I found some music that was fun to walk/run to... All American Rejects and put it on Shuffle and I was off!! Started out with 10 min of walking (warmup plus the first 5 min interval walk)... The breeze was cool and energizing! I even saw a pretty yellow butterfly (see previous post) that flittered across my path at this one turn and smiled. I was really enjoying my time outdoors with the blue sky as my ceiling and the green grass as my floor!! It was a great start!

Then it was time for the first 2 minute run... I did pretty good! I didn't look at my watch at ALL until i had like 6 seconds left!! YAY! I actually accidently stoped 5 seconds early bc I got confused when I looked at my watch! Oops! Oh well! The 2nd 2 minutes were a little tougher... but I didn't look at my watch till I only had about 17 seconds left- so I kept going and looked ahead and pushed myself (just get to the next tree, etc) and then when I finally looked down at my watch- I'd gone 17 seconds OVER the 2 minutes!!! SERIOUSLY!????

I was SOOO proud of myself!! It seems ridiculous that 2:17 is really that big of a deal when 2 min isn't that long... but it IS a big deal when the last 30 seconds usually KILL YOU! I was pumped!! I smiled all through the next 5 min walk!! So the 3rd interval was actually the hardest! But at the end of it (I looked at my watch w like 15 seconds left) I was in that same part where I'd seen the butterfly before. I just said "Come on God, where's the butterfly!? Come on! Show me! Encourage me!!"... and do you know what?!?!?! That little yellow butterfly flittered back the other way across my path! YES!!! (I feel dumb writing this... but it was SOOO encouraging!) I totally felt like God met me in the little by sending that little yellow butterfly flittering back across my path at the last few seconds of my run!! When I went back to walking- I realized I'd even run an extra 5 seconds!!

However, when I started walking after that interval, I had pain! That pain in my side/ribcage that made me hate running when I was little. The pain that I hadn't felt since 6th grade when I vowed to NEVER run again! I kept walking and breathing and put my hands on my waist... drank some water... before the 5 min was up... it was gone! yay! (ps anyone have any hints on why that happens and what I can do to prevent it?!)

The final run started right by the little pond where I was delighted to see a bunch of little turtles on the bank!! So fun!! So it was tough, but i vowed to not look at my watch till I got to the 3/4 marker on the ground at a certain point. When I got there- I had 10 seconds left... so then I was going to goto the next tree... When I got to that tree, I'd gone 7 seconds over!!!!! YES!!!

When I started walking again, I was smiling, I felt accomplished, i knew God had met me out on that track and I had renewed confidence! I did it!! By Myself!! I did it!! :) I even went further than I intended!! Yay!!

One more of the 2 min intervals and then I'm up to 3 minutes at a time!! I can't believe I'm about to say this- but I think I'll be ready!!!

I can do ALL things through Christ who gives me strength!! Phil 4:13!

SOOO you go out and enjoy God's creation and be blessed!!


Stats: Time: 40 min, Distance: 2 miles, Total Running Time: 8 min 25 seconds!

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Pump It Up

Just wanted to post really quick that today has been a really fun day so far!! I got to goto a 3 yr old BDAY party at Pump It Up! Its this fun place that is filled with inflatables and loud music where kids can run wild, jump, climb and slide on all the different things.

Well today, I was my kiddo's BEST friend! :) He wanted me to go with him on EVERYTHING... and I'm pretty sure in the past I just haven't had the energy to do so..... but today, I LOVED getting to run and jump and chase my kiddo up and down the slides and obstacles on the various inflatable thingies. It was a BLAST!! And I actually feel like I got a workout! I was sweaty and my heart rate was DEFINITELY elevated at several different points in the hour that we were playing!

If starting this workout/running thing helps me be a better mom/playmate for my little man, then it will be worth it! He was so happy to have me by his side. His face when I came up over this one obstacle to slide down to my little man was just sheer delight! I loved every minute!! Most of the other parents were just sitting quietly on the sidelines or talking w other moms. I was in there w the 3 or so dads that were playing actively with their kiddos! Greatness!!

In other news- I got the Total Gym in my apt last night- it is GREAT!! I can't wait to figure out what workouts I want to do on a consistent basis! It is exactly the piece of equipment i needed. It provides versatility and will be great cross training to build strength and endurance and hopefully some muscle definition as I go through this training period! It also folds up really small and will easily fit in my Coat Closet... BUT don't be surprised if it stays out most of the time! So if you come over- be warned! :)

Ok I have a busy day ahead, but just wanted to post about Pump It Up!

Have a super duper weekend!
Be active!


Thursday, March 12, 2009

2nd Interval Workout

Last Night while some really cool guys took my little man to play at Chuck E Cheese, I got to hang with my sister AND THEN grab some (healthy? prob not) food at ZuZu's and then go hang out at one of my Favorite Running Girls' house. She has a treadmill up in her attic room along with some jump ropes, and satellite music! We flipped stations constantly but always kept it upbeat!

So I jumped on the treadmill and was determined to do another of my 'interval workout's - Week 1!" I started with 10 min of walking, then 2 min of running. Surprisingly, the first minute or so was fine, but the last minute was tough. Nonetheless, I didn't stop! I'm determined! Second set was a little better and it was no problem for about a minute and a half! The last 30 seconds were KILLER- but... didn't stop AND had 2 AWESOME cheerleaders literally cheering me on!! Thanks LeeAnn and Chrissy!

Around the 3rd interval, Scott brought Nate back and so it was fun to watch him play and interact with everyone while I kept up my workout! Of course, it was the last 30 seconds that were killer again!! The final interval wasn't SOOO bad.. but... that last 25 seconds is soooo the toughest!!

So I'm encouraged I did it TWICE this week (after not working out EVER in weeks past!)! I need to make it 2 more times before I can move to "week 2" on the interval training... which increases my run time to 3 minutes... man... I can't imagine how I"m going to make it... I feel like such a wimp only being able to run 1.5 minutes at a time without feeling like I"m gonna Fall Over!!! OMG! 3 minutes is gonna be tough! (I feel like that sounds RIDICULOUS btw!!! its JUST 3 minutes?!!! Right?!)

How am I EVER gonna make it to the 5K in june... or even the 1K in April!? I have faith that if I follow this plan and keep consistent, I'll make it! And thankfully I have some pretty awesome friends who want to see me succeed, who already like running, and who are willing to invest in me! Its a really great feeling!! I know without a doubt I would probably have given up on the goals by now (a week after I've made them) if not for these girls! I would believe the lie that its too hard or that I'm just not cut out to be a runner! But not only do I not want to let myself down... I really don't want to let them down either! I know they would love me anyway, but they believe in me almost more than I believe in myself and I want to give them reason to continue to do so!! I'm so encouraged!

So tonight I am getting my "Total Gym 1000"! I'll use it to cross train on days that I just can't get out and workout. hopefully it will be a nice supplement to the runs and help me develop more strength and endurance in these muscles I haven't used much in a while!

Sunday afternoon, my mission is to go buy the right shoes! I definitely don't want to injure myself in the beginning before I even get started! I've been told that Luke's Footlocker is the place to thats where I'm headed! I'm sure I'll blog about the experience on Sunday or Monday in case you don't know what a "Luke's" is! (I didn't till a day or two ago!).

Thats all for now... Wish me luck getting the Run/Walk workout's in!!


Workout Stats: Total Time: 40 min interval run/walking (plus some other exercise for prob 15 min), Total Distance: 1.5 mi, Total Running time: 8 min


Ok so last night it was rainy and REALLY cold.... so the run was out! I'm working on alternative bad weather workout options (cross training and such) but... instead- Last night I decided to shop - online and at Walmart.

Online- Craigslist- I went to look for the "alternative workout stuff" i was referring to above... I found a Total Gym 1000 in Addison for only $25 bucks!! Well that DEF fits my budget for workout equip so I emailed the guy right away!! I'm picking it up tomorrow!!
If you aren't familiar w the Total Gym- its the one that Chuck Norris endorses... it has to be good if Chuck likes it- right?
Here's a link of all the exercises you can do w this one little machine! I think I"m getting a STEAL!! :)

So then after having found the Total Gym... I head to walmart to get a few NECCESSARY (yes NECCESSARY!!) things!! If I"m gonna be working out- I have to have comfy clothes, a waterproof watch w a stopwatch on it (for all those intervals) and an armband for my ipod right? Right!!

There were some awesome deals on the Danskin brand workout attire... I got some pants, a jacket, a couple of shirts, and a few more things I need to return!

Next thing to purchase- hopefully this weekend maybe- are some GOOD shoes! I dont want to injure anything before I even get started so I've been told this is a MUST!! I'm also told that Luke's Footlocker is the place to go... sooo perhaps that will happen this weekend!

Thats all I have to report for today... I'm almost all "geared" up for my workout tonight (either on a treadmill at a friend's house- thanks CF! or running outside w the same wonderful running friend!!) I'm excited to put on the NEW clothes so that I LOOOK like I know what I'm doing!!

Stay warm and dry,
Tiff- the r.i.t. (runner in training!)

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Butterfly's.. in case you were wondering

In case you were wondering what's with the butterfly's on the title bar...

I thought I'd explain...

The following word was sent to me by a friend back in Oct 08 and has been a continued encouragement:

"I saw a picture of you cuddled up on the ground and then there was this shell/covering that formed on top of you. It was a protection.. Not intended to isolate you. And then I read Philippians 3:20-21 (NIV & Message). I believe it's referring to when we go to heaven but I think it can pertain to our renewing on earth. The words that he will make us "beautiful and whole" stuck out to me.

And I was reminded of a worm being incased in a cocoon to protect it while it makes a transformation into something beautiful. I think that's something the lord continues to do throughout our walk with him - constantly changing, renewing, refining us to make us beautiful. You are Beautiful! And you are Loved!"

And then I came across the following story:

A man found a cocoon for a butterfly. One day a small opening appeared, he sat and watched the butterfly for several hours as it struggled to force its body through the little hole. Then it seemed to stop making any progress. It appeared as if it had gotten as far as it could and could go no farther.

Then the man decided to help the butterfly. He took a pair of scissors and snipped the remaining bit of the cocoon. The butterfly then emerged easily. Something was strange. The butterfly had a swollen body and shriveled wings. The man continued to watch the butterfly because he expected at any moment, the wings would enlarge and expand to be able to support the body, which would contract in time.

Neither happened. In fact, the butterfly spent the rest of its life crawling around with a swollen body and deformed wings. It was never able to fly.

What the man in his kindness and haste did not understand, was that the restricting cocoon and the struggle required for the butterfly to get through the small opening of the cocoon are God`s way of forcing fluid from the body of the butterfly into its wings so that it would be ready for flight once it achieved its freedom from the cocoon.

Sometimes struggles are exactly what we need in our life. If God allowed us to go throughall our life without any obstacles, that would cripple us. We would not be as strong as what we could have been. Not only that, but we could never fly.

Then from a blog I stumbled upon:

"If I may make an analogy: the butterfly doesn’t want to come out of its cocoon. You’ve been in the world as a caterpillar, and you felt somewhat at peace with that. But you’re destined for bigger things, and you’re more beautiful and complex than anyone would judge by looking at you. The vibrant color would dazzle the eyes of many, and you’re terrified of showing it, because its different, and you want to be accepted, regardless of your feelings towards popularity on the whole.

I struggle with who I am. I struggle with what God’s doing in my life, because I can’t see what’s going on.I know truly that God is able to “do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine” (Eph. 3:20). Like get this butterfly out of her cocoon."

So... these 3 thoughts have been a constant reminder of this "Cocoon" phase that I'm in - physically, spiritually, and emotionally. The picture of the butterfly, to me, is a great reminder that there's more going on than what can be physically seen.... and that one day, I will emerge, "beautiful and whole."

“There is nothing in a caterpillar that tells you it’s going to be a butterfly.”- Richard Buckminster Fuller

This quote was at the bottom of an email today... I thought it was a good one!

What you believe yourself to be, you are. -Claude M. Bristol

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

1st Solo Run/Walk

SO I did it! The first time EVER by myself really...

I was determined to start off on this interval thing I posted 2 entries below. Week one begins now! (Meaning my target week 10 (aka the 5K) is around May 20th. Lets hope I can keep that up!)

I jetted after work over to the Track at Eastfield for the first time ever. it was unknown territory and all I knew was that it was supposed to make a mile all the way around. I grabbed my iPhone w the iTunes going, turned on my "iMapMyRun" to see if it really was in fact a mile and was off. The first 5 minutes I thought things were going to be easy... No big deal! Then it was time for my first 2 minute run. OMG! I thought I was gonna die!!! I looked at my phone no less than 50 times in that two minutes just HOPING the time was up!! BUT I DIDN"T STOP RUNNING!!!!! FINALLY, the 2 minutes (that seemed like 20) was over! I huffed and puffed my way through the 5 minute Walking part of the interval... and then it was time to run again....

Ya the 2nd time was pretty much just as bad!!! But- again, I didnt' stop running!! (and didn't even have anyone there to push me! I had to push myself!) Then the next 5 minute walk- and a pleasant surprise of some ducks in a little pond that I didn't even know existed out there. So then, the 3rd set of 2 minute running... and while it was hard, it wasn't quite as bad as the first two... now I still checked my phone a lot to see if it was over- but maybe not 50 times... maybe just like 6! (2 minutes feels SOOOOO long!) Then for the last stretch of walking before the final run... I had already passed my car and didn't want to be late coming back to get nate, so I decided to turn around and go the other direction about 3 min into the last walk. So then it was time for the last 2 minutes of running for my day today! YAY!

It started w a new song- can't remember what it was- probably NSync or something, but it was a great beat to run with (I used to be in marching band so I really can't help running or walking in step with whatever music is on at the moment!) I looked up at the clouds and noticed a plane flying high and I just started saying verses like "I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength" (phil 4:13) and "Run the race so as to get the prize" 1 corin 4:24 and other stuff... and I actually (surprisingly to ME even) started SMILING while I was running. Yes it still hurt, and yes I was still tired... but I CAN DO THIS!! I WILL do this!!

This was day 1 of my interval training... I"m excited about getting to week 6 when I can run for 12 whole minutes without stopping! That seems ridiculously impossible right now! But We'll see!! I'm NOT giving up on this!! (Thanks to my girls who are helping keep me accountable!)

I am a runner.... (in the making!)

Stats: Distance: 1.5mi, Time: 35 min, (Total RUN time: 8 LONG min)

Disclaimer Info on Interval Training

Disclaimer on the Run/Walk Program:

(I was just reading the text above the chart that I put on my last blog and thought I'd include it on here. I might need to change my workout plan/days due to what this says!)

"Be sure to check with your doctor prior to starting any fitness program. This 10-wk program is based on running 4 days a week. Participants should be capable of walking briskly for 20 minutes before starting this plan. As a beginner, do not run more than two training days in a row. Remember to train, not strain, by taking REST days.

This training program builds gradually and will allow you to finish your first 5k feeling strong. Repeat each workout four times throught the week, spacing the training days evenly. For each workout, warm up and cool down with a five-minute walk. "4 intervals (5 min walk + 2 min run)" means walk for five minutes and run for two minutes, then repeat the set three more times.

During your training program, the first few sets of running may feel uncomfortable. If you ahve difficulty, take it slow. With regular workouts and persistence, you'll start to enjoy running. "

- Taken from Womens Running Magazine March/April 2009 issue

The Goals are SET!

So last night after LG, I got to have a great time of fellowship and planning with 3 of my favorite girls! We all set goals for ourselves in the realm of running! (while downing some Chick Fil A fries!! of course!)

So- for accountability sake- I will post my goals here:

**Long Term Goal - Run the Cowtown 1/2 Marathon - Feb 27 or 28th, 2010 (13.1 Miles)

**Group Goal - Run the White Rock Relay Full Marathon - Dec 13, 2009
(Relay divided between 4 or 5 runners so btwn 4 and 6.5 miles.)

**Short Term Goal - Run a 5K before my 29th Birthday(June 9, 2009) -
(3.1 Miles)

I found a few potential 5K RACE options on

Probably one of the BEST options would be June 7, 2009 in Plano, The Komen North Texas Race for the Cure. Its for a good cause, I could wear Pink and it'd be a great start to my 5K experience!

Now for the hard part... getting to those longer term goals....

I set up IMMEDIATE Goals and they are going to be divided into monthly goals (that may flex over time, but we'll see!)

**MARCH: get to where I can run a Mile (without stopping!) Doesn't sound like that big of a deal- but I can't really even run more than like 2 or 3 minutes without trying to quit right now... so a MILE sounds like a LOT to me!!

**APRIL: Run 2 Miles without Stopping

**MAY: Run 3 Miles without Stopping and be ready for the 5K!

I actually found a 1mile "fun run" (fun!? Really!?!? Man! I never thought I'd think that running is fun!!! EVER!!) on that above website on April 4 that I might consider registering for, just to push myself to make sure I get there! Plus it'd be good experience! Maybe I can talk some of my girls into doing it with me!! Its the "Victory Over Violence Walk/Run" in Ft Worth. Another good cause I'm sure! Why not?! Right???

Training Plan:
Daily Goals-

**Tuesday's (Starting TODAY)- I will leave work at 5pm- change clothes and then go spend about 45 min run/walking the trail at Eastfield College (right across the st from my work). I will come back by 6 to get Nate and then we'll go home. Why didn't I think of this before?!!

**Wednesday's while Nate is in Awana- I will get a few of my girls to meet me (hopefully) at the track at Eastfield and do interval training until I can run for a solid 30 minutes. I basically will have from about 6:10 till 8:10 to work out, train, etc.

**Thursday's I will probably start leaving at 5, running at the Eastfield trail and then coming back to get Nate at 6, unless I can get a babysitter for a bit on Thurs evening (as is the case this week- thanks to some pretty awesome guys who asked if they could hang w Nate).

**Friday's- once a month at least I'd like to do the Ballroom dancing thing (but of course that will depend on Nate and where he is)

**Saturday's - For at least 1 hr on Saturday, I will take Nate with me somewhere to do something active- even if its just walking or kicking a ball with him or something. I want this to begin this week..... not sure if that will happen or not- but I am going to

**Sunday's - will be a day of Rest.

**Monday's - not sure yet! maybe a strength training during lunch break or something?! I dont know. I dont want to get all hot and sweaty bc we have LG on Mon night... so I might take Monday's off too or alternate Monday/Sunday or something. We'll see.


FOR NOW- this is my plan. It might change- but I'll keep updating this as to how it does change for greater accountability!

Interval Training

My Final post for today is going to be the Interval Training plan I"m going to follow until I can run for 40 min straight!!

Wk Run/Walk Workout (Repeat 4 times per week)
1- 5 min Warmup, 4 intervals of (5min walk + 2 min Run)
2- 5 min Warmup, 4 intervals of (5min walk + 3 min Run)
3- 5 min Warmup, 3 intervals of (5min walk + 5 min Run)
4- 5 min Warmup, 2 intervals of (5min walk + 8 min Run)
5- 5 min Warmup, 2 intervals of (5min walk + 10 min Run)
6- 5 min Warmup, 2 intervals of (5min walk + 12 min Run)
7- 5 min Warmup, 2 intervals of (5min walk + 14 min Run)
8- 5 min Warmup, 2 intervals of (5min walk + 16 min Run)
9- 5 min Warmup, 2 intervals of (5min walk + 18 min Run)
10- 5 min Warmup, 40 MIN RUN!!!!!!!!


Monday, March 9, 2009

The First Weekend

Well I wasn't FANTASTIC this weekend, but not terrible either! I was definitely more active this weekend than weekend's past!

Friday night I got to go Ballroom DANCING!!!! My FAV!! Unfortunately they didn't have their normal Live Band Night, but it was still a blast! I was happily surprised to find that I wasn't nearly as rusty as I thought I would be! It's been about 8 mo since I was there last and I just LOVE that place. I dont know what it is.

I got there and started off with a slow Lindy Hop with my fav swing dance Partner- Jordan. I realized my shoes have about had it and I may soon be in the market for some more! Throughout the night I did a Rumba, a Fox Trot (silver level, I"m told), Salsa, Meringue, Waltz (my least favorite and I did it TWICE!), a 2 Step, and some more Swing to end the night with a bang. I definitely worked up a sweat and my calves were killing me at the end of the night! I can't wait to go back! SO MUCH FUN- it doesn't even feel like WORK! Awesome!! I was actually relieved that the night was over at 10 as opposed to 11 like I had thought it would be!!

Saturday morning the goal was to get up early and go for a little run/walk with my 3 yr old, L.A, and M. We didn't make it up by 8... we snoozed till 9 and then finally got out of bed! After getting Nate ready, he decided he didn't want to ride his trike... so we opted to just bring him and a ball and see what happened! We got in about 30 good minutes of moderate walking (about 1.5mi according to my phone) on the Village Trails and Nate got to see the ducks! All in all- it was a great start to the CRAZY day!!

The rest of the day was spent driving all over Dallas and moving furniture - and i kinda count that as exercise too! :) Margaret got a SWEET couch from Craigslist and it was a fun day out and about!

Sunday I got to play in the nursery at Church and then after lunch a group of us went down to Reverchon Park and layed by the (river?). Not much exercise happened, but it was nice to just try to enjoy the outdoors! While we were there I read the Women's Running magazine cover to cover. I learned that I need new workout clothes (and underclothes), new shoes (well kinda already knew that) and a Beginners plan to work up to being a RUNNER! :)

As far as this week goes, I believe I should be able to run/walk Wed for sure while Nate's in Awana, and then need to get in 2 or 3 more days. I may shoot for Tues and Sat... though I'd like to get something in today. We'll see.

Thats all for the weekend update!


Friday, March 6, 2009

Its been 2 days...


And I'm still a bit sore when I move! That HAS to be a good sign, right?

The thing I'm most impressed/surprised about is that even my shoulders and obliques are a bit sore when I move a certain way. Who knew that running would cause everything to work in ways it hasn't worked in a while!?!

So I've scheduled w my girls to walk/run/whatever on Saturday morning. I didn't do any exercise on Thursday, (unless you count ROCK BAND and DDR exercise! hehe) but Plan to go Ballroom dancing tonight. I'm hoping to work up a sweat doing something I LOVE doing!

Back in 2006, I used to do ballroom/salsa on Fri nights and Swing dancing on Wed's. I LOVED it! I felt confident and I was pretty good at the dances! It incorporated my need to be social and meet new people with my love for music AND even included exercise! Just those 2 days a week and people were constantly asking if I was losing weight. I never got skinny on this plan, but I definitely felt better and must have looked a little better too- judging by the people's comments around me. I LOVE dancing. I quit doing it when I didn't have a regular babysitter for those nights anymore. Perhaps I'll work out a way to get to go more over the next weeks!

Figuring out how to incorporate exercise into the "Single Mom" life... with a 3 yr old in tow is my biggest challenge at the moment. I RARELY pull the 'single mom' card... but its hard to figure out what to do w an active/curious 3 yr old that constantly wants attention and still find time for a good workout. I basically gave up when I lost my childcare for Dancing and haven't tried again. But, its time to figure something out! I'll let ya know what I come up with!

I had a hard time sleeping last night- woke up constantly even though I was in bed by 11. I downloaded some new Aps on the iphone that I'm sure will help me track my intake, my calories, and my overall progress! :) I kinda wanted to strech when i kept wrestling around to get comfy, but never did. I just didnt' want to get out of bed. I'm hoping that after dancing tonight, I"ll sleep better!

I"m also really hoping that after walk/running tomorrow, I'll be energized and get lots done around my house! There is much that NEEDS doing!!

Thats it for now... thank GOODNESS it's friday!!!


This is titled: 8-Week Running Training Plan
Follow this plan to become a runner. By Amby Burfoot

Check it out!

Advice on Getting Started

So I emailed a friend from church who has a rather inspiring story (in my opinion). She IS a runner but wasn't always... She's now a size 0/2 but always saw herself as a 12... so I asked for tips. Here's what she had to say! Thanks V! Check out her blog for more from V.

"First, I want to say: You have control over your weight. But no one can make the decision to lose weight for you. You have to decide for yourself that you’re going to do it. And once you do that, you can and will lose weight. So, you've already gotten over the first and worst hurdle!

Some things that help with exercise:
• Having a workout partner. More than likely, there will be days that you don’t feel like exercising, but hopefully, on those days, your partner will encourage you to go ahead and go…and vice versa. It’s a good motivator on those tiring days.
• Find an exercise you enjoy…or at least don’t hate. If you can work some variety in there (taking classes, workout tapes, walking, biking, swimming, inside, outside etc) that will also help stave of boredom and the lack of motivation.
• Start slowly, especially with running. A mistake lots of people make is to try to push too hard and too far too early, then get injured and/or burned out and quit. I recommend starting by combining walking and jogging. It’s good to challenge yourself and increase speed and distance, but slowly! You shouldn’t add both going faster and going further in the same week. Otherwise, you will get runner’s knee…painful, and it will make you have to stop running temporarily.
• You need a good pair of shoes. Be willing to pay $100. It’s worth it.
• Warming up and cooling down is also a good way to avoid injury.
• And give yourself rest days. Absolutely required. You want to enjoy exercise, so you will keep doing it…not hate it and quit. Now, during the actual workout, it might be hard, but the accomplishment you feel at the end is worth it. Plus, endorphins from exercise relieve stress! (I can really testify…a good workout can totally improve your mood).

• For a specific beginner’s running plan, see the Runner’s World website:,7120,s6-380-381--9397-2-1X5-3,00.html It’s a great website for runners.

Some things that help with losing weight/eating better:
• You do not need to exercise to lose weight, and exercising alone will not cause you to lose weight. The only way is to burn more calories than you take in. That’s it. Burn more calories than you take in. Exercise does help you burn more calories though…but you have to be careful not to “reward” yourself for working out with lots of calories.
• So, what Casey and I did was count calories. We used a software program called Fitday to log all our food and exercise, aiming to burn 500 extra calories a day. It’s cheap, easy to use and you can download it. But Weight watchers, etc. probably does the same thing. We bought a digital kitchen scale, weighted, measured and entered our food. That way, weight loss really just comes down to the math. I can say there were definitely days that I would work out a few more minutes so I could eat a little more. I faithfully counted everything I ate for more than a year. Once you do it for a while, it's really quick to do.
• You should not drastically reduce your calories…that just cause your metabolism to slow down and prevent weight loss! 500 calories a day is plenty.
• How to cut those 500 calories? The easiest way is Volumetrics. There’s a book…which I didn’t read…but basically: eat the same amount of food, so you don’t get hungry. But the food that you do eat should be higher in water, fiber and protein to help you feel full. Oatmeal, whole grains—lots of fiber. Soup, fruit, vegetables—lots of water. Lean meat and dairy (in reasonable portions)—are high protein and help stave off hunger. (Google for more info!)
• Absolutely still eat your favorite things…but less often and in smaller portions. Like the kid’s meal of fast food instead of the combo. You get enough to satisfy the craving…then get a salad with light dressing to fill up. I recommend reading Mindless Eating (I checked it out from the library). It’s a short, interesting book with lots of tips to stop overeating and how to easily cut calories. Good stuff. For example: eat off small plates, so when you fill up your little plate, you feel like you get a lot more. It works. Casey and I barely use our dinner plates., does that answer your question?

So basically, start slow, have a partner, cut calories slowly and keep going! You shouldn't lose more that 1-2lbs a week to be healthy...some weeks more will come off, some none at all. But keep trying...every step towards being healthier has benefits.

Anyway...good for you! You've already made the decision, which is the hardest part. Now the rest is details! Let me know how it goes. :-)

Thursday, March 5, 2009

The First Morning After


So last night, I put Nate down and crashed by 10:30pm (this is EARLY EARLY for me if you dont know me!) This morning I didn't even hear my alarm clock until around 7:50am. It'd been going on for a while (its set for 6:45am). So needless to say, I was a bit late for work.

How do I feel? Well... the second I turned over and opened my eyes, I realized my back hurt a bit, my abs were a bit sore and my left hip flexor (I think thats what its called- the part on the front of your leg where your hip connects to your leg?) are quite sore. Upon further investigation- a lot of me is sore! BUT- thats good- right? No Pain No Gain!!

I actually feel a LITTLE more energetic this morning overall- despite the soreness. Not a lot- mind you... but a tiny bit! I even feel like I'm walking straighter, standing taller- WEIRD and prob all in my head... but... alas, thats how I feel!

Now I'm just trying to figure out when I'll be able to exercise again. I want to push myself. This will be a process and change can't possibly happen overnight, but I can do this!! (friends- dont let me give up on myself when it gets hard! PLEASE!!!! I want this! Remind me of that. I started it.) FYI as you might have noticed, this blog is going to be a bit of me trying to motivate myself to do the stuff that I've never wanted to do (work out consistently, etc)

Anyway, I'm going to change me. One Day at a TIME! :)

That reminds me of a song by Sanctus Real:
Change Me

Did I change your mind with
What I said last night?
Did I break your heart by
Straying so far?
From what you have in mind
For my life?

Would you change me from
Who I've been lately?
'Cause I know I'm nothing
Without you

Did my words betray the
Patience I once claimed
Can't you see it in my face?
I need your grace

Would you change me from
Who I've been lately?
'Cause I know I'm nothing
Without you
Would you save me from
The way I've been lately?
'Cause I can't see living
Without you

Would you change me from
Who I've been lately?
'Cause I know I'm nothing
without you
Would you break me from
The way I've been lately?
'Cause I can't see living
Without you

You Gotta Start Somewhere- Right?

March 4, 2009, 8:00pm

I have never been athletic. I have always hated to run. Actually, I haven't even really liked exercise that much ever. I have decided I want that to change!

Tonight- thanks to 2 of my favorite people- LeeAnn and Margaret, I walked 2.5 miles on the Village Trails with a few sprints here and there. It was a lot harder than I thought it would be and I complained… quite a bit!! (sorry girls!! Thanks for putting up w me!)

I know that if it weren’t for those 2 girls, I would have just given up and told myself that at least it was better than any other day this week (or this month or even this yr!). 2009 is it. I’m gonna quit saying that “one day I’ll be in shape.” And I’m going to quit making excuses for why I am the size that I am. I’m going to find energy and discipline and I’m going to be a good example to my son.

As I was reading my bible the other day, it talked a lot about the body being a temple. One of the ways it referred to body use was in eating and taking care of yourself. I have never been good at taking care of myself. Unless it was FOR someone else… its not really a priority (example: unless someone is coming over, I don’t really clean my home, etc). Its time for me to take care of ME FOR ME!!!

I’ve always said that if I were to get married one day, I would want to be in the best shape of my life… but in some ways, its just been an excuse to not do it NOW! I know without a doubt, that if I was doing a wedding countdown, I’d find ways to work out. I’d make myself eat right, and I’d cut out the sweets- bc it would be FOR that day, FOR my pictures, FOR my husband, and FOR my future… but why not do that now!! Somehow “brides-to-be” find ways, time, and money to invest in themselves in the months following their engagement so they are in the best shape of their lives for the "big day". I’ve decided its time for me to make the time, and find the ways NOW!

SO tonight was the first step. I can’t say I liked much of it at ALL. I was in pain, I was winded, and I wanted to stop at any given moment. It was ONLY an HOUR of my day. I SORTA feel better… sorta feel like I accomplished something bc it’s a start. But I’m hesitant to pat myself on the back too much just yet till I see if I can do a little better next time and even if I can keep it up. I’m not sure how I’m going to accomplish workout time with a 3 yr old… but I know that if I were getting married- I’d find time… if someone else’s life depended on it- I’d find time! So… I’m going to find a way and time!! It’s there!!!

My goal is to eventually do a ½ marathon (maybe the Ft Worth one next yr). 13 miles. At this point I don’t even care about the time I do it in… I just want to DO it!! I’ll be figuring out realistic short term goals very soon… I know one of them is that I want to be able to run a whole mile soon. I’ll start w running a ¼ mile… and then a ½ mile. I can do this. I don’t have to hate running. I will call myself a RUNNER!!!

SO… that’s all for the first post. I hope to be able to look back on this post and be so glad I started this!! I hope to encourage someone else to start something new, something good for them someday. I believe its worth it!


Tiffany, The runner to be!

Practicals: Weight 205 lbs, Size 16/18, Workout Time: 60 min, Distance travelled: 2.5miles