Most of us are familiar with the verse in Matthew, but I'll put it here just for a refresher:
7 “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 8 For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.Ok so after my last post letting you all know the "big secret" - that I'm asking hard core for my husband - I've been pondering this verse.
9 “Which of you, if your son asks for bread, will give him a stone? 10 Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? 11 If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!
For a long time I dont think I understood why Ask, Seek, & Knock were all in the same sentence. In my book, they just seemed like a reiteration of the same point. However, recently, I have come to realize that maybe that isn't the case.
Lets go back to my previous BHAPS and how God worked them out: my car and my home. They go hand in hand... and its kinda a long story... so Maybe I'll split them up.
In 2008 I was working a Commission only job and money came sporadically. As a single parent, I was having a tough time keeping up with bills on this income and therefore the car that I was making payments on became too much to bear. It was Repo'd. I came outside one day and it just wasn't there. That was a bad day! BUT God had better for me. My BHAP was: God I need reliable transportation for cheap and SOON.
I opened up to my co leaders in a lifegroup pre meeting. It was humbling, humiliating, embarassing. I was failing at something and needed help, needed prayer. Because I made my needs known quickly in community, my needs were met! My co-leader at the time calls me the next day and says "My roommate has a Volvo that has just been sitting at our Apt. He got a new car a while ago and doesn't need it. I think he will just give it to you." Uh - WHAT? Who just GIVES AWAY cars?
My dad goes to check out the car & even though its been sitting for 6 mo or so- its in decent shape and we end up spending only $1000 to get the car running, inspected, etc. The car was a 95, but it was great, safe, reliable, sturdy. It even had leather seats and a moon roof. BHAP answered.
The volvo was awesome... but then I was coming home from hanging out with friends one night and a guy backed into me in the parking lot of my apt complex. That night I cried thinking God's great gift was destroyed and now I was at the end of my rope and was again car-less. I remember feeling devastated and hopeless. However, GOD works all things for Good!
It ended up being the other guys' fault. The car was "totaled" according to his insurance and it was worth $4500. I got a windfall of money from this FREE car and was able to pay for other things I needed. I put over half in savings. I hadn't had savings since my sales job depleted it. The other bonus was that the car still ran! My dad is an amazing mechanic and fixed the car where I could drive it!
So the accident was in April 09, and I was able to drive the car all the time. However, it had some body damage - something that didnt bother me a bit, but it did bother my apt complex. It hadn't been a problem because I was gone all day every day at work and returned when the office was closed. UNTIL... one random day in August when my son was home sick and I got a note on my car saying I had 20 days to get my car fixed or it would be towed anytime it was spotted on property. Again- this was DEVASTATING! I was mad. I didn't know what I was going to do. I went and talked to the management and they told me that after the 20 days passed, my car would be looked for... and if found on property at any time day, night, or weekend, it would be towed. But, GOD works all things for Good.
Stay tuned for part 2....